Title Unknown - Highschool Senior Year

Llexxi Youngs

I should’ve stayed at home. Instead, I’m letting the year pass me like the last 3. Is that what I will be doing majority of my life, letting things pass by? I try to ignore how it makes me feel but essentially you can’t ignore what makes you, you. It’s how I remind myself I’m human and still alive. Which is what I want right? I thought I didn’t but then I thought I did it’s confusing. I can’t make up my mind. I think I’m just scared but I’m also scared of what I am now. Does that make me a bitch? I don’t want to be one but I’ve been labeled by the all-father so who am I to question the all-knowing, all-seeing, all-father? At least that makes me something in your eyes. No take baksie. You’ve given it to me, and it’s stuck with me for life. I do like the ring of it though. It reminds me of all the things I am and aren’t at the same time. It’s like the outershell of me but I can take it off. Does that make me a faker? Well in the eyes of god, he sees the truth, my father has never been so blinded. God will show the way, do you not see the path he has so graciously shown? oh, I see. You chose to choose to walk your own path. That’s why you can’t see what the father has shown us. Can you hear? It’s okay, I can’t either.